Tuesday, February 27, 2007
I always wonder why I have so many tasks to be completed and why my work keeps on piling? I was living under stress and become low self-esteem, grumpy and irritable person as I never feel happy about my job. In fact, most of the employees will agree with me. Oh... by the way, I have 2 subordinates reporting to me.
Today, something unpleasant happened. Customer complained about our performance and in fact I should be the one who handle this and it turned out that I'm the last to know. Reason is I'm way too bz doing new jobs which keep on assigned to me and my group and I never realized I haven't really plan and distribute out the tasks to my people.
James finally confronted me, seeking for solution for nice talk back with the customer. I revealed about my working situation and perhaps all the while I never think that I should pass the tasks to my people and watch an eye on them. Instead of take up all the responsibilities on my own. I felt a bang on my head and I really feel like hitting my head towards the wall after all this while....
Yes, it's time to let go and plan something more resourceful about my work instead of working like a cow, the company neither pay more to me nor appreciate my hard work. They will label you as "poor management skill", that's all. Afterall, assignments planning and distributing works more efficient than working all alone.
So my dear... don't ever think that work hard is the key to success but work smart means lots more than that and remember to make full use of "work distribution" among the group!
Since last May, CK & I already upgraded as parent. Parenthood is exciting, challenging and exhausting. It marks a new beginning in our life and at the same time also raised up conflicts and matters between each other.
It's not easy to maintain good communication and thinking with anyone in the family espcially if one doesn't accept opinions from others. The feeling is complicated and I'm the one who's stubborn enough to hold firm about my stand in my parenting style which I considered definitely perfect. It's quite confused coz at some point I feel like I'm too sensitive about my surrounding & people but think from another perspective, why am I so stubborn about my stand as anyone around me in fact is helping and easing my burden and yet I never realized it.
We gone through the most difficult and terrible first five months after the baby was borned. Tears, confusion, dislike, helpless, stress & pressure poured like rain and it seems never ending.
Eventually, I can't bear it and talked it out with CK from time to time and finally I decided to make a chance, a chance from my mindset and my stubborn thinking. I admit I didn't do it well and I spent a few months more to really release all the pain and bad feelings. The process is painful but only throught this I realised there are way too many things that I gotto learn. It's just a path in completing my life, a part where I should stand up and face it on my own. It's a good challenge, and a good change.
I never think that I'm able to have the opportunity to blog... that's me.. I always think and never take any action on what I planned. Especially in things that I plan to make it big & great. Therefore, I decided to stop day dreaming and take up the challenge and try to be one of the blogger as well.
So, here I am, created a blog here and named it as "Awaken Spring". Why is it so? Well, I guess it's because it's time for me to awake after so many years been thinking and speaking. I am always a pessimistic person, think of any possible bad outcomes even I never try on anything yet. My husband gave me Hope and never give up on me and thus I decided to turn over a new leaf. "Spring" means new beginning and it's also a season that I love so much.