Surprise?

Mummy received a job interview call last week for the position of a purchaser. Was quite surprise since the application was about 2 years ago, before having Zheng.

Went for the interview yesterday and was unable whether to go back to the workforce after knowing that already been shortlisted. A huge commitment and sacrifice must make for the job and then feel so heavy to leave my little ones again. On the other hands, mummy already contacted back the music center to start a part time job which gradually will turn into full time. Headache!!!

So, the decision? Still uncertain... there are pros and cons ... must think carefully tonight... Another sleepless night...

Last Day!

Yup... today is my last day in corporate world. How do I feel? To be frank, I'm happy and relieve that I can leave finally. Perhaps I'm not in a good company... staying there for 5 years with no performance reviews (hence no increment), no bonus, ...Yes, you READ me?? I never know we will receive bonus working for a company after 2 years I joined in!!!... no career path, etc... Basically I just work for money. Feel wasted for my knowledge and time but now it's all over.

People always asked why I stay on? Well, I always have hope towards the company but the greater the hope the greater the disappointment. The most terrible thing that I received from management is "You don't contribute because you have no projects on hand!" Hello... how would you expect someone who do procurement, someone who do customer support, someone who do company's inventory control, someone who take care of financial have certain projects with customers? What excuse is this??? I just feel unfair to those supporting staff in this company as I already knew it's very hard for them to get increment. Shall I psycho them to leave as well... *evil grin*

Alright, no more complaining and it's not good to talk bad behind, huh? But this is reality! I hope you won't feel so bad about your current company as I hardly can find any company like mine... so be grateful! Hahaha...

What happen to me today?

I was very late to office today with my mind full of the plan on what to do after I reached office. En En woke up in the middle of the night and I got to entertain her till almost 5am, then went back to sleep coz feel very tired to wake up early today.

Initially, I planned to go to bank to withdraw money and go to mainland to collect components from supplier but before that need to call up supplier to confirm their location. Then, after I login searching for supplier's details and my other hands was actually looking for my car key, wait a minute... how come there's no key in my bag as I remember I never put it on table yet and... I think I didn't have it in my hands when I came out from the car!!!

Went down to the car park and it's confirm my key was still hanging inside the car which didn't use remote to lock. I locked it by hands la.... Duh! Luckily my colleagues are kind enough to help me get it out from the car. Ha! They are Mr.Utility in my office, from broken high-heels to mechanical problem... you name it, they are very hands on. They can fix almost anything and I really respect them.

Bad thing is the car door for the front passenger cannot be opened after the incident probably due to the way they "open" the door to retrieve the key. Well, never mind at least I can drive home later.

Next, I checked on my Touch N Go... arrgh! I left it at home! If I have it I can travel back paying the Penang Brigde toll only RM5.60. Without one I need to pay RM7.00. Call me stingy, I just don't want to pay extra so I have to get it at home. Ended up I didn't go to collect goods from supplier.

Why suddenly I become so forgetful? Motherhood did change alot of things huh?

Leave or Stay?

Work for money or work for passion??
I always thought we are all working for money. Yes, you need money to survive in this society, everything involve money. Money is so important to human being.
Two years ago, one of my boss (yup, I reported to two bosses and always have conflicts as one always said go for A and the other said B) told me we must have passion in work so that when you enjoy what you do then indirectly you will become better at it and will silently establish potential or effort which you never know. Oh yes, provided that you really love your dear job!
In my mind, I was thinking if ones have problem in surviving or earning less, do you think they still can head for working for passion?? That is so untrue as working for passion at the job you love is an ideal case but how many of us on the earth are blessed with such opportunity?
I lose the interest, not even passion of my job as I don't see any future in it. Change company? Well, think about it but it's just changing environment. I had seen the dark side of corporate world. Office politics is unavoidable, it's just make me feel like I'm so hippocrate when talking to customers as the way I was told to. Therefore, at the end of the day still go back to square one. Organisation management wise, exactly like Jazzmint posted in her blog "The Bl***dy etc etc" and made me feel like I'm not a contributor there. Hello, I never asked for a rise in pay since I first joined 4 years ago. I just wish the company will appreciate what I did even my role sometimes are just a small project coordinator. Feel Very frustrated!
Sometimes, I think I'm too straight-forward and daddy told me that my attitude and behaviour is not suitable to be in corporate world. I have different characters compare to OL and I just prefer to tell the truths, and always do. Too bad, in corporate world when you deal in business, people tends to love listening to the opposite.

I took back my piano on the year I prepared for my wedding, before En En's arrival. The reason? Don't feel like selling my piano in hometown which I already abandoned for 10 years and in fact, the piano travelled to Penang as one of the furniture piece. That time I was quite free after work so decided to continue my music education till diploma.
I am not so ambitious about my career as I chose family as my priority. I even once told daddy that my greatest achievement is to become a full time housewife. Unfortunately, I'm not marrying a billionare so cannot be those highly educated "tai-tai" whose responsible to take care and educate the children. Funny is it? I also feel funny at first when I realised I have such an "ambition" LOL. Daddy never laughs at me but in fact, he loves it when I have this idea. Maybe that's why we clicked.... LOL
OK, back to the real world, both of us still have to work to support ourself and our family. I tried up teaching music as I wanted to know whether I love it more than my current job. And of course it's another stepping stone if suddenly got retrenchment. Just in case... and I never know that one day, I prefer to be in education world than the corporate world. Maybe because I have En En now, my perspectives and views had changed. I just wish that I can involve more in her development phases and early education. I still don't think it's the right time to become a SAHM, my parent will kill me. But slowly I receive support from both families for me to try involve in education line.

The transition phase is really hard, as this is actually a very difficult decision. I'm in a very terrible dilemma now. But if I never move the step, I can't reach either ends. It's so painful to let go on what you are earning now and start all over again. On the other hand, when thinking about you can do things that you enjoy, you will really long for that day to come. Hopefully I can select on work for passion in no time...

Greeneries in Office

Never know why my boss loves green plants so much. Once he ordered, the whole office will be full of green plants at every corner since we have a medium size office. In fact, this really ease the tired working eyes and create a balance environment at workplace.


This is one of my boss's favourite plant.

I do not have a camera with me during working hours or else I'm sure will snap a few photos. The bad part is not everyone participate in caring for the greens and eventually the plant dies and again my boss will change the whole batch again. There are even evil-hearted people who pour coffee or tea to the plant, so bad! But then again, if the plant stay indoor for too long, they lack of the energetic look meaning starting to turn dry on the leaves and if abandon further will end up a pot of brown leaves plant. Feel sad about this coz it always make me think of us, human being who live and stay alone will end up very lonely and old in the future when we age.
So, take care of every lifes that we have and appreaciate the brightness and lustre of it even it's just appear for a short period.

ERP, Everyone?

Today was called in by a customer to undergo a training meant for supplier to submit quote and acknowledge PO from their online Oracle system. This is a new implemented model in my customer's buidling. Yup, they are moving towards full ERP system for the entire plant.
Well, this is my first time to see Oracle system. Not really touch the whole system but only the supplier portal. They spent almost a million to set up all these and to my surprise there are some common user friendliness is not there. Some of them are no defaulted value, no auto calculation for total price, no auto-triggered when submit is not funtioning. My company is doing ERP as well but we are not meant for giant company but is customisable. I feel great to have the exposure to popular ERP application even it's just a small piece of it. Nowadays most organisation will need ERP to run their business and operation as this will reduce their manpower and operation time and up the volume for production and proper management decision tools.
I am interested in learning about how today's IT technology and application can help and apply flawlessly in organization and the role of each of them. I'm not a techkie person and was once determined to be a consultant. Too bad, this never happen yet and since having my baby, I am thinking on how to become a good mother! LOL Sounds silly right?? But this is what actually my heart is longing for. So, ERP Consultant please give your way...

Papers for Scrapbooking

My boss was doing spring-cleaning in his office room today and asked us to help him to filter out files with unused and outdated documents. Guess what! I found out there are lots of colours papars (in fact, it's file divider)and brochures in good quality paper printing. After asking around that nobody wants to be the owner for "second-hand" items, I decided to keep them and use in my scrapbook later.
Indirectly, these papers suddenly inspired me on the usage in my scrapbook and feel so good as I can save money on papers already. *Thumbs Up*

Work Distribution

Ever wonder how come you have unfinished job and assigments given by your boss? Let's see... we work in a company and we work in group. We need each other cooperation and opinions.
I always wonder why I have so many tasks to be completed and why my work keeps on piling? I was living under stress and become low self-esteem, grumpy and irritable person as I never feel happy about my job. In fact, most of the employees will agree with me. Oh... by the way, I have 2 subordinates reporting to me.
Today, something unpleasant happened. Customer complained about our performance and in fact I should be the one who handle this and it turned out that I'm the last to know. Reason is I'm way too bz doing new jobs which keep on assigned to me and my group and I never realized I haven't really plan and distribute out the tasks to my people.
James finally confronted me, seeking for solution for nice talk back with the customer. I revealed about my working situation and perhaps all the while I never think that I should pass the tasks to my people and watch an eye on them. Instead of take up all the responsibilities on my own. I felt a bang on my head and I really feel like hitting my head towards the wall after all this while....
Yes, it's time to let go and plan something more resourceful about my work instead of working like a cow, the company neither pay more to me nor appreciate my hard work. They will label you as "poor management skill", that's all. Afterall, assignments planning and distributing works more efficient than working all alone.
So my dear... don't ever think that work hard is the key to success but work smart means lots more than that and remember to make full use of "work distribution" among the group!